51 posts tagged “music”
I wandered alone
waiting for the sun
while hanging in heaven
the sun waited for me
Clouds with storms in their eyes
wouldn't let me see
but the sky has cleared
now my sky has cleared
I'm the one you thought you'd never find
a sudden coastal holiday makes you see me in a
different way
your voice sounds so hollow
I'm glad to have you following me
listing off my favorite things
you say I have too many dreams
but first I wished and now it's true
I'm becoming awfully fond of you
your voice sounds so hollow
I'm glad to have you following me
you didn't know me and still you called
I didn't find it strange at all
seeming like the thing to do
I knew it then and so did you
your voice was so hollow
I'm glad you've come to follow me
follow me, follow me
follow me, follow me
It all started with hearing Wet and Rusting for the first time. The song felt like foreshadowing... slowly I worked (for almost three months) waiting for the rest of the songs to come together over me, all the songs that will tell me the future. Once I was done, I'd have a prophetic mix tape on my hands... something to pass along to God to make sure He gets it right.
Originally titled "Dear God: Take Notes..." The songs on this mix have lyrics that line up with the premonition I had of what is coming. The general idea is that things are changing for me and I feel it, I felt this way last February and I'd missed this ambition and restlessness. I'm hoping that during the process of picking songs and weeding them out, I'll find a conclusion that is more optimistic. The last song to be chosen was Enter One by Sol Seppy, and in that song they sing "Insha'Allah" which translates into English as "if it is God's will". After giving it some thought I decided that this was a better title for the mix.
It's a good thing songs like this keep coming along for me... I don't know what I'd do without it.
I might explode into a murderous rage and kill the first 13 people I see. I might dissolve into a thin dust and coat everything in my room. I might fall asleep... forever... and never wake up.
Instead I listen to this song, over and over, and it keeps me right there on the edge of sanity. Thanks Page France... I owe you one.
Needless to say this song belongs aside the others on the current mix.
For those of you who don't know already, I'm recently unemployed. This puts me in something of a bind as I will not be able to pay this month's bills with the amount of money I have currently saved. What am I doing to fix this? Job hunting... I've printed out many copies of my resume and I'll be going from business to business looking for work.
However, and you guys know that I never do this. I'm going to ask for money. I'm a musician, and you can hear my music at:
http://www.myspace.com/ersatzsmile
http://www.myspace.com/deltarhythm
You can download my first two albums for free off of my Ersatz Smile profile however, I'd love to hand make a copy of any of my cd's for you, normally I'm busy with work and school so I don't make promises like that, but right now I'm broke and have no classes or job... so I'm free to do this.
My Paypal e-mail address is ersatzsmile(at)gmail(dot)com
here's what I've got:
Ersatz Smile - Self Titled - $10
My first album has a lot of nostalgia attached to it, and finishing it marked the beginning of all of this. Before this was finished, I just wrote songs, after it was finished, I was Ersatz Smile.
Ersatz Smile - A Time For Attrition - $10
This album was written and recorded during a really hard time in my life. I still think that I'm working through this period. It's got a lot of my favorite songs on it.
Ersatz Smile - This Short Song is For You - $5
This was a project I took on to overcome writers block, and to force me to mix up my writing style a bit. I asked Ya'll to send me info about yourself and I'd write a song for you. I ran out of steam 12 songs in... but it turned out really nice. Kristin's song is the only one I play live, so most of these are unheard by all of you.
Delta Rhythm - learning to spell without words - $5
Delta Rhythm was my old Fungus Rock Alias. This is a small collection of computer generated electronica songs that I'm very fond of.
Delta Rhythm - nothing upstairs - $5
This is a collection of computer generated electronica songs I'm nearly ashamed of. However if you like nonsense this might still work for you, it's not good... it's not supposed to be... it's fungus.
Custom CD (you pick the songs!) - $10
I'm serious about this too... if you want a mixture of songs I'll make a custom "greatest hits" for you. Just let me know what you want, and I'll throw it together.
THE GRAND COMBO! - $35
This will include all three Ersatz Smile cd's, the two Delta Rhythm cd's, and a cd of random unreleased songs that are not on any of the other albums. It's a $45 Value. So you save!
Shipping is included in the price because I'll be shipping using media mail, so it won't cost me much. If you want it sooner than later, or need it shipped internationally, I'm sure we can work something out.
Another addition to my current mix tape project. great great words, listen to Viva Voce, they rock.
in the center of the universe is a star sucking hole,
and the and the lives of every planet
are in danger as it grows.
But it's not the thing that gets me down,
no it's not the thing that brings me down.
In the center of the Earth,
where the heat can melt your brain,
and all the molten lava
comes pouring out like rain.
But it's not the thing that gets me down,
it's not the thing that brings me down.
In the center of my heart, is a beautiful girl
and one tear from her face
could destroy the world.
It's the only thing that gets me down,
it's the only thing that gets me down,
it's the only brings me down.
I've been picking songs very slowly for this mix I'm working on inspired by the last Menomena post. The mix is called "Dear God: Take Notes..." and it's going to be really good. The songs on this mix have lyrics that line up with the premonition I have of what is coming, or are significantly appropriate for how I feel right now.
The general idea is that things are changing for me and I feel it, I felt this way last February and I'd missed this ambition and restlessness. I'm afraid that I'm callousing romantically, but I think that everyone feels like that while they are alone.
I'm hoping that during the process of picking songs and weeding them out, I'll find a conclusion that is more optimistic. I've only used mixtape making as a form of therapy on two other occasions, neither of which were this calculated.
here's the most recent addition to my list, although there's no way to know if it will make the final cut.
New York is lovely in the winter time
All the sidewalks are white as snow
The buildings, all the people that pass me by
How the smile on his face says he's in love
I took the train all the way to Brooklyn Heights
I remember when you took it there with me
We sat side by side and held hands for some time
We saluted the Statue of Liberty
I have much farther to go
Everything is new and so unpredictable
I should just kick my heels together and go home
But I'm not sure where that is anymore
Oh how I wish I could go back in time
To the night when I heard my mother cry
She held me in her arms and we talked for some time
And I sang a song her mother sang to her
And it goes something about paper dolls and what men prefer
Something about the cross and how her Jesus died for her
Something about love and how it's worth living for
I wonder does love like that exist anymore?
I have much farther to go
I'm so confused I know
I should just kick my heels together and go home
But I lost my way when I lost you
Sometimes I cry when it's late at night
And you're not there to lay next to me
Morning breaks and the sun warms my face
How I wish it was you warming me
I swear that Menomena is the music I want to hear all the time right now. This song is foreshadowing... I can feel it.
I'm waiting for the rest of them to come together over me, all the songs that will tell me the future. Once I do, I'll have a prophetic mix tape on my hands and I'll pass it on to God to make sure he gets it right.
I think I can believe in you, who ever you are.
and it depends more on who I am, than who you are.
I will make my love even stronger, and even more foolish.
And when you unravel the secret will travel
It's hard to take risks with a pessimist
I hope that this shaking will help us awaken
Separated by skin ‘til we let ourselves in
It's hard to take risks with a pessimist
It's hard to take risks
I hope one will burn me, I know you’ll desert me
(This is the closest I’ve come to touching you the way I want)
The hope can be painful, I’ll try to be faithful
(It’s hard to take risks)
Ruin My Day
I know it's today, so I guess you could say one recovers
It's odd you should call me but then after all we were lovers
I don't wait by the phone like I used to
I don't hope for kind words you might say
You don't prey on my mind like you used to
But you can still ruin my day
You can still ruin my day
You're telling me now you regret how we never connected
Oh, as if you forget that it's me you regret you rejected
I don't easily forgive like I used to
And I seldom get carried away
No, you don't have the pull that you used to
But you can still ruin my day
Oh, you can still ruin my day
"Love, it was nothing
It hardly hurt a bit,"
Sounds good to me, but unfortunately I remember it
Now, I don't lose my place like I used to
I'm not moved by your artful display
No, you can't draw me in like you used to
But you can still ruin my day
You can still ruin my day
You can still ruin my day
You can still ruin my day
I said you can still ruin my day
it's been a while since I've posted anything, it's strange going a while without having anything to say. I need to restart documenting my thoughts because it's getting to a point where I can't keep them all straight.
Anyway, Muscle Museum has been a favorite in the car lately and I'm starting to refall in love with Muse again. Their last album had kind of turned me off to listening to them, but the truth is... their older stuff is so smart and amazing. So I've always loved this video, and right now especially this song is really good right now. If you've got a moment to spare, read the lyrics and watch the video... it's good stuff..
She had something to confess to
But you don't have the time
So look the other way
You will wait until it's over
To reveal what you'd never shown her
Too little much too late
Too long trying to resist it
You've just gone and missed it
It's escaped your world
Can you see that I am needing
And begging for so much more
Than you could ever give
And I don't want you to adore me
Don't want you to ignore me
When it pleases you
Yeah, and I'll do it on my own
I have played in every toilet
But you still want to spoil it
To prove I've made a big mistake
Too long trying to resist it
You've just gone and missed it
It's escaped your world
Can you see that I am needing
And begging for so much more
Than you could ever give
And I don't want you to adore me
Don't want you to ignore me
When it pleases you
Yeah, and I'll do it on my own
And I'll do it all by myself
You will never make it
